Monday, March 30, 2009

One Day More

Only one day more
Nearer to the destiny in store
Leaving the crossroad before
Yearning to see and to explore

God what're your plans for me?
O Holy Spirit what do you foresee?
Darkness and despair or happiness so free?

Know not what tomorrow holds
Need not what tomorrow brings
Only God is my refuge and stronghold
What else do I seek? What things?

Better a poor godly beggar
Empty in wordly possesion
Satan would love a gold lover
Then you'll be doomed of salvation

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Monday, March 16, 2009

Disappointments

You thought getting 2310 in SAT 1 was a good result,
You thought getting 2400 in SAT 2 was excellent,
You thought getting 5As and MUET band 6 were perfect,
Unfortunately, you're wrong...

MIT still doesn't want you (for two years in a row). You're stucked at a hanging thread uncertain of where you are heading towards in the future. Having no mood to apply for NTU and NUS, you wiggle through www.recom.org, only to find even more exciting news which do not have you as the main character. You wished you could rejoice with their achievements but envy and jealousy tries to poison your mind.

You shake away thoughts of "God, that's unfair" and "Why not me?" but somehow it gets the better of you. Sinking deeper and deeper in the depths of despair, you found yourself gasping for breath. You were trapped. It was all over.

Until God told you that He was still in charge of everything. You finally resorted not to believe in what you thought was best. His was the perfect plan, and the main obstacle blocking your view is that superbly magnified ego of yours...Spiritual diagnosis says that you better fast on self-gratification if you want to remain a healthy person.

I guess I will just have to see what God wants on 1st of April. Thy will be done.